I know, this does bother me but my decision to eat meat is not an unconscious one. I was vegetarian for four years and vegan for another three and it was so engrained in how I perceived myself- as someone who was compassionate and conscious of others- that when I started eating meat again it really messed with me. I do feel guilt about it but I started eating meat again when I went into recovery for my eating disorder- I had too much baggage attached to my veganism and it had become more than just a compassionate choice. Now that I have a healthy relationship with food I have begun to minimize the animal products that I eat but I do not think that I will ever be vegetarian or vegan again. I will, however, continue to make the best choices that I can when it comes to eating meat. The turkey we had for Thanksgiving is from Diestel Farms, which has a 5+ GAP rating and is as humane as a farm that raises animals for slaughter can be. I appreciate your sentiments and understand where you’re coming from because I’ve been there too but right now I’m admittedly selfish.